“What you resist will persist and grow bigger”

Looking back at the moment I “woke” up and saw the negativity and the world that I created with it just shook me to the core. I remember my college professor talking about Carl Jung’s “What you resist will persist” and how I didn’t care for it. A deep regret was not contemplating on where my life was headed. He was giving me a life lesson here. I went on about life without grounding and never saw the choices I made. I never saw how my choices effected me and the immediate world around me.

All the inner work I resisted doing, just kept rolling into a huge ball of disaster for me. I never saw the disaster growing into a magnet for toxic people to be around me, attracting toxic events , and eventually to being manipulated by friends I thought cared for me.

Most of my adult life consisted of:

  • continued low self-esteem/self-worth
  • image issues
  • eating disorder and other health issues
  • lack of self-love/self-hate
  • identity crisis
  • self-blame
  • low vibe behaviors and habits
  • victim mentality
  • unmotivated
  • lack of accomplishment
  • anxiety/depression

I resisted myself and didn’t acknowledge what I was becoming at a young age. I still have these elements I listed in my life which I have to train myself to become a better person.

For now, the list of negativity I shall call it or the list of resistance, created manifesting blocks in my life. I mean, how can you call in good things when you have a massive resistance to it? Absolutely, can not call in anything good.

How did myself block my manifesting?

Abundance blocks:

My lack of motivation and perseverance kept myself from finished a bachelor’s degree. Instead, I worked minimum wage jobs and didn’t have much chances to grow. If I did have potential chances to promotions and leadership, I didn’t allow myself to get out of the comfort zone. Instead, the last few years being manipulated kept me from growing because my limiting belief was that I was incapable of becoming more.

To break it down more:

Prosperity & Fortune- I saw myself unable to make more than minimum wage or that my limited education limited my wealth.

Career Block:

I didn’t allow myself to advance to different positions that could launch me out of the customer service level. My lack of motivation kept me where I was which was minimum wage or slightly above minimum wage.

Love Block

I was unable to attract love. The lack of self- esteem or worthiness repels anyone coming to me even if I tried manifesting it. I saw myself as unfit to not only love but good people from coming to me.

Overall

Happiness blocks:

I was not feeling content with life. I felt I was never going to have it.

All of the blocks above created fears such as never accomplishing what I wanted to achieve in life. That created more fears. This thinking pattern kept my blocks very nice and huge.

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It brought me to depression and made me unable to see any good that can come into my life. No wonder nothing positive would come to me or stick to me.

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