Everyday is a new beginning. The weather this morning is cooler than yesterday. Everyday can bring new delights or new challenges.
A part of my current challenges is accepting change.
I am so used to my comfort zone that accepting new things that make me uncomfortable just gives me intense anxiety.
These are not exactly changes that I am creating for myself. It is changes that are happening in my life. Thankfully, these new situations coming into my life are happening slowly. I think I would have a panic attack if they happened all at once.
My heart beats so fast it feels like my breathing will slow down a bit.
I remind myself to breathe in and out.
I remind myself that things are okay.
I am safe.
I remind myself to take things in slowly so I can pace myself as I deal with my situations.
Another practice I reduced was my meditation. Meditation helps so much! Something else to go back to. I rely on myself now which is tough. I know, life is all about making decisions for yourself. So, my decisions means actions that have good or bad consequences. I doubt myself so much. Am I making the right ones for myself? I’ve messed up so often throughout my life. Will I screw up again?
Next, assignment for myself is to work on my self-esteem. I tried to do it on my own but, I need some kind of assistance. I have recently discovered that libraries have gone digital. I am SO looking forward to reading as much self-help books as possible!!!
Managing my life right correctly is in my list of to-dos. I am just not sure which direction to take it on. I realize I am still a hot mess. I have to pick up my pieces and put them together so I can see some kind of organization in my life.
I am currently reading, “50 Mindful Steps to Self-Esteem” by Janetti Marotta.
Thanks for reading. Enjoy your day!