It’s been a while

I see its almost a month since my last post. I have been busy with a new schedule. All that previous talk about finding a job, well, I finally found one. I am working and going to school so most of my time is used up. I am getting better at scheduling my time so, I finish my school work and have a free moment such as now to write here on my blog.

I am probably just going to vent during this blog or maybe just update about myself.

My new job has been treating me well so far. I am socially awkward so, I am not liked by all there but, hey its a job. I couldn’t believe I got the job since I have been waiting for so long for something decent to come along.

I manifested it by revisiting my needs in a job. I wrote out a list of what I was seeking in a job. After I was done, I let it go. I was feeling doubtful I would find something suitable for me but, I was staying hopeful I will find something close to my list. I continued on with my routine. And BAM! I get an email to go in for an interview when I least expected it.

On the day of the interview, I used the public bus to get to the interview. To my amazement, that ride was free for some reason. Whatever, the reason was, I was grateful. Was that a sign that the job was it for me? Is it possible a job could be the right fit for me? I have been searching for so long.

The Universe always has a way of sending you signs. That bus ride was a sign.

I doubted myself after the interview.

Then another, BAM! I get the job.

Whatever I am dealing with at my current job, I am still grateful. All jobs are not perfect since dealing with people can always become complicated. Many different personalities can conflict. Maybe my lesson is to learn how to deal with my social challenges in a work environment.

When I come home from work, I focus on my school. I am in school entirely online which is convenient. Technology can be amazing! Less travel, just focus on assignments. School is a challenge with full time work but, it is doable. Honestly, it’s also tiring. Why did I decide to take 3 classes?

My energy vibrations have been low. My body is constantly exhausted since I wake up 6:00am for work now instead of 10:00am. My mind and body is not at its strongest. Today, is the first day in a few weeks where I have a free moment after class work to go out, take a walk, enjoy a healthy meal made at home, have tea/coffee, dessert, do errands, and focus on my physical and spiritual self. Today is my day that I am bringing myself back to the self that I was before my schedule changed. I realized how rest is so important to maintain my high vibrations. I went from sleeping 8-10 hours(don’t judge-I love my sleep) to 5 hours during the week. If I am extremely tired, I will nap after work but, lose time for my class work. But, I chose my body first.

My meditation practice has gone. To my amazement, the hiring manager at my workplace is also a spiritual teacher. She offers meditation class on Fridays. What a connection! I am grateful. This is mostly when I have time to practice my meditations.

I remind myself today to put my energy into something creative or just let out my energy and I chose to write here on my blog and let people know what I am up to. Creativity keeps your spirit high and positive. It is an outlet. Channel that energy, let out the negative and create good vibes!

Anyway, stay love and light! Continue to manifest the life of your dreams one day at a time!!

Until next post. ….

Emotional Intentions// emotional check

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Before I go on with this post, I just wanted to announce some news that I am now monetizing this site. Not in a big way but I have added Wordads to my posts. I hope they do not become too annoying on this blog. I am trying this out. 

Now onward with the post:

Emotions promote inner turmoil or inner peace. Keeping your emotions in check is super important. In my journey, I realized that being internally peaceful and calm is ideal to creating a harmonious life. Its also a great assistant to manifesting all the good you want in your life.

This has been the most painful part of my life yet, the most life changing part of my life. Learning how to control my emotions.

Controlling emotions doesn’t come easy from someone who was been angry with the world up to the recent past. That’s so many years of anger. 30+ years. Learning how to cope with it takes so much discipline. 

Self-improvement is constant. 

I see the benefits in changing my emotional well-being. Not too long ago, I felt that I wasn’t making much change in myself but then things slowly started shifting for me in my life. Nothing major happening just small enough to make me think, something is changing internally. 

Finally, I realize the what the saying means, “change your thoughts, change your life”. I have been on this path of self- healing and learning how to adjust my inner thinking. Yet, I didn’t see how much it has impacted me as a person. 

Being aware of your thoughts.

First thing is changing thinking and mindset. Become aware of the thoughts your thinking. Your emotions will not calm down unless your mindset adjusts and sees things in a new way. And then emotionally, things will shift as well. 

I never realized I easily I became affected emotionally by things until 2020. I began to meditate. Meditating changed my life.

I am so embarrassed to say I am still a moody person even for my age. I am working on that. 

If I didn’t land a job after an interiew, I can be in a pretty bad mood for some time. I realized not a good thing. I could pass up on an opportunity like when I passed that cute guy on my block trying to get my attention. I ignored him because I was in a “bad” mood. 

Good attitude towards life

Emotions create an attitude which dictates the outlook of how you see life during the day, week, month, et cetera. I have to reframe the negative situation: Losing out on a job could mean there is something better for me. Once I changed that thinking, my emotions will shift and allow me to see the good that can possibly come to me. Therefore, create a good outlook and attitude towards life.

I have been extra interested in positivity and how it affects the mind. Being positive can have an affect on creativity as well. Positivity keeps your mind open to new things which creates resilience and problem-solving. Instead of going, “life sucks. I stink”, I can think, “what’s next for me?” This thinking can lead to so many possibilities. Embrace the challenges. This may not lead to an “aha!” moment immediately but, something will come up and miraculously appear slowly. 

Always when it is least expected. 

I am currently focusing on my emotions to keep my mindset positive. 

Enjoy Meditation

Meditation is a fantastic tool to stay centered. I will admit that my cluttered mind has altered the effectiveness of my recent meditation sessions but, I still go through with it because I can still receive benefits. Hey, I may not be able to shut off all of my sad, negative, or angry thoughts of the day. I can still calm myself down a bit. And my blood pressure too, haha. It makes a difference. 

It’s not necessary to do anything special to be able to receive healing from meditation. Simply find a 10 minute meditation session on YouTube and just breathe with the session. It helps. 

Keeping the bad mind chatter to a minimum.

Anyone who has constant mind chatter knows what I mean. It is hard to tell yourself “shut up“. Your mind will be quiet for a minute and then get right back on it. 

Positive Affirmations to keep down mind chatter

You can use affirmations. I do understand sometimes certain life situations do not allow you to talk nicely to yourself. How can you apply positive affirmations when things get tough? 

Maybe rethink a situation in your mind? Discuss in your mind, what is my fear in this situation? What can I do to reframe my thinking? 

If I lost a job opportunity, what do I fear? Well, it’s almost 2 years now and I may never get a job. I am not likeable.

How can I rethink this? Use gratitude to shift mindset: I have support from my family and a warm home to go to so I do not freeze in 20 degree weather. I can take my time to find the right fitting job for me. 

Reframe the mindset. 

List out all the positives that creates that good feel. Using my job search example:

-I seek a positive work environment with support and growth possibilities

-Good team of people and encouraging management

-Using my talents properly

-a position close to my home so less travel

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Journal: write it down

I’m a major fan of journaling. I do this everyday. whether it is to dump out my feelings, fears, brainstorming, even dump mindchatter. I write as often as I can and it helps me. My mind feels lighter when I release my thoughts into a journal.

Keep shifting the mindset

Getting used to shifting your mind is so frustrating at first. You are engulfed in emotions that take over your mind and body. To add, this thinking can take a lot of work in the beginning and can even be frustrating. It feels like fighting yourself in your mind sometimes. However, negative emotions are distracting you from balancing the inner self. I have been there. But, keep pushing even if shifting to this new mindset is hard at first. Keep doing it. The end result is how resilient you become after working on this change. Always think, how can I make this situation better? Or what is another way of seeing this situation? 

Change your thinking, change your life! 

Heard this before? It is so true! This new focus will redirect all that mind chatter and especially, the emotions. Getting your feelings into calm is the main event. Once your thinking changes, your emotions follow. At tranquility, feel the flow of good from the Universe! 

Self-help/ Reading/ Grow in Knowledge

And of course, self-improvement is constant. I am consistently trying to listen to lectures on YouTube from the late Dr. Wayne Dyer, Mel Robbins, Tony Robbins, Oprah Winfrey and anyone who inspires you. I currently have a big interest in shifting mentality and emotional intelligence so I have been listening to audio books or lectures on my free time. 

Making time to read and expanding your knowledge is so important. It’s also a tool to help your mind change. You can always refer back to your reading and go, “well, let’s try this technique Mel Robbins wrote in her book. ” 

Heart Nature 

Last but not least, nature walks. Currently, I am comfortable in my warm abode and stay away from the cold weather. Once the weather improves, I will return to my walks. I love them! The deeper the inner turmoil, the longer I walk. I am fortunate enough to live with green space around me so, I take advantage. I actually miss it. Am I becoming addicted to nature walks? 

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Healthy foods

One last last thing I forgot is to eat nutritious foods. Even if you feel guilty from having a donut, eat an apple anyway or choice of fruit. Healthy foods keeps your mind and body running so, you can work on the tough mental stuff. And drink lots of water throughout the day. I love water! 

Anywho, to keep emotions in check:

-Shift thinking, use gratitude to adjust your mindset

-Shifting to a positive mindset opens up to creativity

-Meditate to clear the mind chatter and reduce emotions

-Read, expand knowledge to help shift your thinking 

-Nature walks or any exercise activity that helps you release some of that bad energy

-Eat well! Drink water! 

That is all for now. Until the next post.

Be love. Be light! 

Keep improving! Take care!

What to do when you don’t have it in you to be positive?


I’ve been watching pink panther on YouTube. Amazing time when I was growing up. The younger generation may disagree with how things were without internet and telephones were landlines not cellphones you carry around in your pocket. 

Television used to be free. You didn’t have to pay for the fox channel or the CW formerly the WB. 

I don’t even think the younger generation knows what a disk drive is. Gosh. Such simple times. I get nostolgia these days. When I was a kid I wanted to grow up and experience a wonderful grown up life. Now that I am grown up, I want to go back to my childhood. It wasn’t the best but summers were spent out doors and I had block parties with the neighborhood kids. Roller skating and biking with your friends or neighborhood kids was a thing. It was fun minus the gossiping. Kids loved to gossip about one another even back in those days. I never understood it. Most likely because I used to be that weird quiet girl in school. No one connected with me because I was the only Asian girl. So I had sympathy for others that were picked on. 

Anyway, enough rambling. I will most likely be those “back in the day….” old ladies in my future telling stories about how things were.

Back to the present: There are presssures around me to be a certain way. To have a successful career even during covid. To be married and have a lovely family of my own.  To have my own place. I want all of that!! However, I am going at my own pace. It’s a slow one.

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Yet, the pressure to do these things is getting to me. 

One reason could be my mother has been trying to convince me for years to go into an arranged marriage in another country! Absolutely not!!!
My parents have their own way of thinking when it comes to normal.

How can I stay positive? 

Have faith that things will work out.

I am repeating this in my brain. Any rejection is God’s protection. 

I am not even sure where my rejections are taking me. I am going to take it one day at a time.

Staying hopeful can be hard in these times. The news reports unemployment yet I am surrounded by people who have employment. I have to stay positive. For one thing that is good news. My family is provided for. 

I have been trying out recipes and staying positive with healthy eating. I still treat myself to pizza, chocolate chip pancakes and different take-out foods to make my taste buds happy. 

I am mindful so once negativity hits, I turn it around and do something positive. 

Being grateful- is a way to be happy. Writing them down in a daily journal which I do attempt. I have a journal specifically for gratitude.

Some things I am currently grateful for:

I am grateful to have another chance at bettering my life. 

I am grateful for being provided for. 

I am grateful to have access to plenty of foods so I do not go hungry! There are those that are struggling.

I am grateful for a warm cozy bed with heat and electricity provided. 

Continuously seeking motivation is my current task. I set a list of goals of the day which is currently short. But, it helps to create a more structured day! 

Complete household tasks to get your mind off the negative thinking:


Organizing something you have been meaning to organize. Organize a closet. If it’s already done last year because of covid I am sure there are places you can revisit. Staying organized is a constant thing. It’s a lifestyle! 

Decluttering- my favorite. My tiny pantry has been overstuffed with ingredients I bought recently for baking recipes so, I will be organizing that. A limited space keeps my items in check so I do not overcrowd my space!

If you are creative a DIY project would be fun. I have a pallet in the yard that is weathered. I have been wanting to repurpose it.

Another thing to help bring good vibes is writing about my ideal day. It is a part of manifesting but it doesn’t have to be just for that although, it doesn’t hurt. Why not manifest? You can use it to uplift and see a better future! That’s a great way to cheer up! When you are down, there only one other way to go and that is up! 

Watching something positive for a short period of time. To get the mind busy. A pre-recorded comedy show maybe. Those are fun to watch. 

Meditation and affirmations are always key to uplift! This will be automatic to any how-to post I write! 

The last thing that is automatic is taking action. I’m at a point in life where staying negative is uncomfortable! I used to victimize myself, and go on and on about the same negative thing. Anyone who talks to me I would discuss my negative thing and repeat it in my head. Negative, negative, negative! Now, I prefer to do something about it. Negativity only hurts and not help. A change is in order. 

Have fun being positive! Lots of love here! Thank you for reading my post!